My fair share of memories...

some things are very difficult to confess...to admit!!
& memories are not created..they are made un-intentionally..!!!! Ofcourse everybody knows it..i know i am doing "bakwaaS"..just missing that voice.."aye hat..chal bakwaas mat kar"..
it is easy to wet eyes...But to vent out tears is a difficult task...especially in front of those "jo idiots(saale/kameene) samajhte hi nahi ki wo kitne important hai".
i dont how i am gonna make it out..without those stupid jokes..without that piece of "roti" which seems sufficient for my twisting intestines...that bakwaas...those stupid bussiness plans! & that all bullshit....it is actually difficult!!
i know we can not even cry in front of each other..u stupids wont even lend your shoulder to me!!!
those lazy hours of tomb...the night before exams...those crazy love interests..& those mad ideas!!!
those similar fantacies..those vacant starings!!
those night-duties..those hasty prescriptions...i know i am desperate to grab this last time!!!
i am carefully avoiding the words like "miss u".."wont forget u"...because as u people say...my state of mind lies in a "denial mode".
luv u all!!!!!!!!!

The Auspicious sign

it was a "normal" morning..a normal wake up...a "normal" queque before washroom..
a lazy me..& my "normal" routine!!!
had my breakfast...packed my bag...filled my water bottle..descended stairs..followed road..with a hustle bustle of thoughts(no stipend since 2 months,job,studies & whats so new about this morning...)
i was walking simply through the road...when it happened..
the auspicious sign...
i felt some warm sensation over my hand..over the pocket of my sweat shirt..& noticed some greenish-white liquid object..my "gray-matter" said...it is a bird's shit!!
God..
& my "memory-maker" amygdala said...come'on its an auspicious sign babes...chill out!
ok..my boiling brain tried to cool itself as i wiped out the premium auspicious sign from my hand & sweat shirt!!
but either the bird had obstinate diarrhoea(loose stools) or she peed after a week..i emptied my whole water bottle in order to wipe out d entire thing!!
i was late by 15 more minutes...good begining of the day!
i was excited about the auspiciousness of the day....at least there has to be something man!
A bird peed on me.....there has to be some good thing in the whole day!!
anyways i reached hospital 30 minutes late..i got a news that we 3 interns are going to manage the whole project OPD today as senior doctors are busy..
by the way, my gray matter is still figuring out dat was a good news or bad news...
it was a very usual routine...patient came in every possible size..shape..age..with the same complaints...My God...whole world seems ill sometimes!!!!
i tried to discuss a case with my senior...& he said....
go...u need to read a lot!
with profound depression of spirit!
i had a tiring day...!!!
still waiting for the fruit of auspicious sign...